When you care about someone, you want to protect them, and help them however you can. Well, that’s what I’m experiencing right now, but the person I care about, doesn’t care about them self. And doesn’t want my help. I try the best I can to let her know that I’m here, and that I’d do anything to help. I know her pain, but I’m here because I was always afraid to die, but the way she talks, I don’t think she is, and I’m worried, I’m worried because I care and to even think about it puts tears in my eyes. We all like to wake up in the morning and know nothings changed in our lives, and if I wake up one morning to hear that news.. I don’t know what I’d do besides cry and grieve, and mourn.. we all take what we have in our lives everyday for granted, and I know that I don’t take her for granted. I hope she can see that she isn’t alone, and people are willing to stand up for her, and pick her up when she falls..at the end of the day I can only hope she’s okay.
Just a group of awesome people in 1994
I spend so much time, fighting to bring a light to my life and others.. but when I feel weak I can’t help but bury myself in the dark, with no desire to hold anything else, but to be held..
Tonight at 2 in the morning, I woke up from a nightmare. All I can say is when I woke, I woke short of breath and was out of bed within a matter of 2 seconds.
Earlier today I was talking with my friend Griffin about how life is at it’s best for me, I’ve never been any better than I am now. So tonight is kind of a reminder to me basically saying no matter how good things get, you’re not invincible. I know that well, because we still remain open to fear and pain even at our best. I obviously am with still getting over the break up and waking from a nightmare.
Yknow, life is what you make of it, and cliché as that may be, it remains true, but life is also spontaneous and will take you by surprise when you least expect it.
I’m just trying to make it through the days